Saturday, December 15, 2007

All I want for Christmas is...

Cocktail Dress!!!!!!

Summer is here. There is no White Christmas. So I can wear a simple short dresses to Christmas party. Wohooo! So write it down on my wish list... Dress dress and dress.

Lace and Charmeuse Tiered Dress by Faviana

Phillip Lim Waterfall Cocktail Dress

Marc Jacobs Satin Sleeveless Dress

Iodice - Lillian One - Shoulder Mini Dress

-All images are taken from

Christian Lacroix - what a divine

I want these shoes!
Christian Lacroix Crystal Wedges with genuine crystals on a 4 inch high wedge heel and a satin bow on the ankle strap is a truly divine. It is sold out at and the price is US$1,600.00 (crazy ehh?!)

Santa, could you bring me this shoes as my xmas gift? I promise I'll be nice the whole year ^^

Oh if that isn't too much, I want this one too *grin*. Price is US$695.00 

Christian Lacroix Printed Signature Silk Sandal with Bow

Friday, December 14, 2007

A Farewell

A farewell party was held a day before International student graduation ceremony on 13-12-07. We, chemical engineering girls graduate met on Pancake Parlour, Chadstone to say goodbye to the internationals who will fly back to their home country next week. We sure will miss you all. Wondering when will we meet again. It was a great 4 years knowing you girls - thru the ups and down, assignments, and exams (not forgetting the parties).

You are now officially an engineers.. Hip-hip-huraa!!!

While I'm still waiting for my ceremony (hopefully) with the locals in May next year ^_^

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Delicious Day Out

Went to strawberry and cherry farm the other day. It was awesome! For paying only AU$8.00 can get access to the farm and pick half a kilo of strawberry. As for cherry, the price is AU$5.00 and AU$8/kg cherries picked.

The strawberries are sweet as sugar. Although the bigger ones are not allowed to be picked =( However I'm happy. It probably the sweetest strawberry I've ever tried. Definitely a place to go to :)

where? Located at Mornington Peninsula, Victoria, AU.
Have to use private transportation since it is not reachable by public transport. However there are lots of day tour packages available from the Melbourne city. The journey is approximately 2 hours from the CBD.

P.S. Strawberry season is from November - April, while Cherries are available from December to January only. More information is available here

Friday, December 07, 2007

Art of Graffiti

The Art of Graffiti from Melbourne street artists.

Location: Flinders Lane, Melbourne, AU

Pic 1. The garbage bin corner. Little corner of street art.

Pic 2. Blue creature on a cup of coffee

Pic 3. Peeck-a-boo man

Pic 4. Safety umbrella-ella-ella (My favourite!)

Pic 5. Red haired beauty

Pic 6. The cat-meaaww

Pic 7. Samesame the pink-nosed raindeer

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Silent night

My housemates have gone for work and will be back in 3 days.
My mom who usually calls, today didn't.
My chatterbox girl-friend who usually very chatty, today didn't.
My boy-friend who usually bugs me, today didn't.

So today I filled my day with VOGUE, some few cherries, and lots of Project Runway.

Suddenly miss my high school girlfriends 

"The Capsa Queens".

 Wondering the time when the four of us will meet up again.

Their locations at the end of year 2007 are:

Yulichia : Vancouver, Canada

Felicia a.k.a Amoy : Jakarta, INA

Dewi : Perth, AU

Myself : Melbourne, AU

Hopefully at the end of year 2008 we could celebrate New Year's Eve together, as we planned.

Saturday, November 17, 2007

Design Celebration

I did it!

The final thing to do with the Design Project. Final poster and Presentation. Lucky for my group Adam did all that. All I have to do is just stand there, and do nothing.. ha-ha!

Yesterday was the last time we, chem-engers together. So I asked them to write on my doggy doll. Like what people usually did in highschool - except I didn't get to do that. Wonder why... graduation in my highschool was so plain boring-- eekkk...

so here's the photos of the doll before and after HAZOPed!!!

Without forgetting to showing off my team 'lovely-pastel-coloured' poster =)

Thursday, November 08, 2007


I am so damn tired of this!

It's not like I didn't study at all! It's the freakin fuckin questions that is so fuckin tough! I'm sure I'm not the only one who fucked up that exam. What is wrong with that bald, ugly-faced, meanie lecturer????? "Do the tutorial questions and you'll be fine guys"-yeah right I'm NOT FINE. Why can't he be nice for ONCE!!!!! This is fuckin last semester. And the subject he teach is freakin ENVIRONMENTAL ENGINEERING. NOT fucking design!!!!!!!!!!! It supposed to be theory with the little tiny bits of simple calculation. Why the HELL did he gave fucking design question?????? Since when does environmental engineering equals to fucking design????????

Fuck this!

I just want to pass engineering. Why you make it seems impossible?? Freakin MEAN lecturer!

Fuck fuck fuck!

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Golden Gaytime

Ice cream named "Golden Gaytime".
It even come in a meal along with pizza.

One way to market a product: add GAY-word on it
(what is that supposed to mean?)

Monday, November 05, 2007

A fight inside me

Why can't we choose whom to love?
My heart doesn’t obey my brain
Silly, that it is confusing
Silly, that it hurts

Hoping the brain win the battle
they resolve it in a peaceful way

~Lets wait~

Sunday, November 04, 2007

Spice Girls – Now Return

I really should be studying Biochem for tomorrow exam instead of this *sigh*

Bored of the lecture notes, I decided to review the Spice Girls new album titled Now Return.

What I heard was that this is going to be their last album (Seriously last this time!) and also to say goodbye to their fans.
I must say that I am a bit disappointed to this new release. I'm expected not just good, but great songs like their old ones: Wannabe, 2 become 1, Mama, etc. What I get from this album is lame lame and lame. In some songs they are even sounds like they are drunk. Listen to track 5: Space Invaders. What song is that?! They were talking or having girls talk which totally NOT important. Even the Christmas songs are ridiculously bad. The only songs I actually like are track 9: Step To Me and track 8: Aint No Stopping Us Now. And that is because they sing it in duet!

Geez girls, sure you can do better that that.

Saturday, November 03, 2007


Secrets? I have a lot? Really?? I don't even realize them… at least not until this convo yesterday night with a best friend.

MeL: Ugh, I really2 want to go back to the start of the semester

Wixwax: for what?

MeL: Lots of things I wanna do over.. Including my holly thesis.. =P

Wixwax: Really? what else? Seems interesting…

MeL: too many to be mention here. Too complicated as well. Hahahaha

MeL: this year is such a roller-coaster for me

Wixwax: Really? Up and down?

MeL: yup. Not just thesis tho.. lots of things

Wixwax: such as?

MeL: secret!

Wixwax: u seems to have lots of secret lately

MeL: really? When??? About what?

Wixwax: umm…

Wixwax: the one I asked u bout ur personal msg. about.. why did u jump??

MeL: why the hell did I jump? Hahahahahaa.

MeL: oh btw.. now I know the answer, and I would jump again if I can turn back time.

MeL: hahahaha… Not explaining ya :P

Wixwax: haha

Wixwax: if u wanna keep that as a secret that's fine. I won't ask further more…

MeL: haha. Thx babe ;)

Well, I guess I have a thing or two I wanna do over this year. Not really a secret, but a bit embarrassing to tell. Another "if only" for me…

Bla bla

Looking at my friend's blog, I realized how plain boring my blog is.

Guess I'm not such a writer after all


Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Hectic Design Project

It has been a while since my last posting. What happened in last couple of months was the freakin' Design Project! Yes, it is the project that I must complete in order to get the Bachelor of Chemical Engineering degree. The topic was about Offshore LNG Production. I have to write 12 chapters plus the essential drawings (PFD, P&ID, and General Arrangement Drawing). It was really hectic. Imagine this, 120 pages of report + appendices and drawings, three interviews, and four other subjects all packed in 13 weeks! That was the first time I stayed in uni until 1 o'clock in the morning. Don't even ask me what it was like in the 13th week. Computer lab is my new home. Or, should I say "our" new home. The up-side of doing this project is that it brings all chemical engineering students close to each other. Usually the Aussies and international students rarely, or never talk to each other. The project was done in a group of 5 and we were pushed to stay in uni everyday from 9 am to 12 am. From stranger to classmate, and classmate to friends.

I remember in the first week we were all so cranky. We thought 20 hours per week of design project is crazy and we will not be able to finish it in time. Who would have thought that everything is possible? Yes, we made it in time. Friday, October 19, everyone rushed to print off their report. Get them bind and stick the A3 drawings to the appendices. We forgot lunch. We run here and there. We helped each other. It was hectic. It was fun. After that, I saw smiling faces saying "WE DID IT!". It really like we graduated.

After that was party time. We went to dinner and then club. All the hard work; all the energy drink that we drank twice a day; all the group tension; in the end it was worth it. What left now are the final presentation, group photos, and best wishes for the future. Chem-eng-ers, I'm proud of you J

Monday, September 24, 2007

10 Reasons to Date an Engineer:

  1. We know heat transfer
  2. We do it with precision
  3. Projectile motion: Need we say more?
  4. We know how to handle stress & strain in a relationship
  5. No couple enjoys a better moment
  6. We have significant figures
  7. Friction and lubrication really is a class
  8. We are trained to do it right the first time
  9. We are used to all-nighters
  10. The world does revolve around us... we choose the coordinate system.

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Life is about choices

Sweets or crackers?
Skirt or jeans?
Long hair or short hair?

How I wished that choices in life is as simple as that.

Why choices?
Life is full of choices. Your future is built based on the choices you made.
"What if" is the next question. What if I chose the red pill instead of the blue ones (remember Matrix the movie?)

I have HUGE decisions (yes its plural) to make before the end of this year. These decisions are related to each other and I have to sacrifice one in order to get the other one. And this decisions will definetely affect my entire life.

I hate to make decision; I'm afraid to make the wrong one.

The time is ticking... I have to decide soon...
God Help me!

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Lady Stranger on my iPod

Every time I go to catch a bus I need to cross a main road. This road isn't very big, however it has 4 lanes. Today, when I want to cross that road (I never use the zebra cross because it's too far), suddenly an old lady grabbed my wrist and yelled. I can't hear what she was saying because I had my iPod on. I firstly thought she wanted me to help her to cross the road, until I finally realized it was the other way around. She yelled, "Wait, still have car", then she pointed at my ears and bubbling some other words that I could not understand (I'm guessing she is Greek or Italian). Ooow, she actually yelled at me because I had my iPod on, which is quite dangerous when you want to cross the road. He-he, this is the first time a stranger yelled at me for using iPod. That small thing made me smile. Thanks for making my day Lady Stranger J

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Random Quiz

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

Friday, July 20, 2007

Ulat di dalam SilverQueen Cokelat

Ada yang suka coklat ini? Ada berita buruk nih. Baca terus ya...

Barusan ibu telepon, katanya ia mencoba product barunya SilverQueen yaitu SilverQueen Chunky Bar (maaf gak bisa nemuin imagenya). Dibukalah si cokelat, kertasnya dirobek, terus cokelatnya dipotes di tengah. Begitu kagetnya ketika ia melihat putih-putih rada menjijikan di dalamnya. Begitu dilihat lebih jelas, ternyata isinya adalah seekor ulat! Yang lebih parahnya, si ulat ini menggeliat-geliat. Yup, dia masih hidup! Spontan, dilemparlah si cokelat. Rekan kantornya justru yang memberanikan diri melihat lebih dekat dan lalu membelah batang cokelat itu di bagian yang lain. Ternyata tengah cokelatnya ada bolong-bolong kecil alias keropos sudah digigiti si ulat. Bayangkan berapa ulat yang hidup disana. Sayang ibu tidak mengabadikan gambarnya (gak inget foto katanya). FYI, SilverQueen tersebut dibeli di Hypermart Kota. Kata ibu sih mau dilaporkan ke consumer affair. Tapi aku bilang masukan ke Surat Pembaca saja, biar seluruh Indonesia tahu!

Sunday, July 01, 2007

Review: India Arie (Testimony Vol.1 Life & Relationship)

If lately you feel down, or you wanted something that you cannot have. You lost faith in yourself, you hate your job, your relationship doesn't go as smoothly, this is definetely the album you should listen to.

A review from India Arie latest CD: Testimony Vol.1, life & relationship.

Ooh, I love love loveeee it!!! The albums has been playing on-and-on this last few days. Can't get enough of her...
I think this is a beautiful album with nice rhythm and the best of all, she has a great voice :) But the one thing that really catch me is that every single songs has a meaningful lyrics (unlike songs in my previous post). They are mostly tell a story about how beautiful, yet hard life & relationship is, but somehow there is always hope:

He lived a simple life and was extremely poor
On top of all of that he had no eye sight,
but that didn't keep him from seein' the light
He said, what's it like in the USA,
and all I did was complain
He said-living here is Paradise
He taught me paradise in your mind

There's hope

It doesn't cost a thing to smile
You don't have to pay to laugh
You better thank God for that
(India Arie – There’s Hope)

There are also songs about losing love. How heartbreak can get you down. But life goes on and all you have to do is get up and see the light. Life is beautiful, with or without that certain someone:

It's crazy how much I miss
a simple good morning kiss
It's crazy how much I've missed
Now it's time for me to live
oh ohhhhhhhhhh

Good morning...
Good morning optimism
Good morning to my faith
Good morning to the beginning of a brand new day

I know that God's will be done
So I lay down my pain and I'm moving on

I know that God's will be done.
So it's a good morning after all
(India Arie - Good Morning)

If you being heartbroken or cheated on recently, this is definitely a song for you; when forgiveness is all you need to be able to move on.

I wanna be happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it's about forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
(India Arie - The heart of the matter)

Oh my favourite ones is about celebrating yourself. You don't need anyone else to make you happy, you are your own strength. The full lyrics goes like this,

I'm having a private party
Ain't no body here but me, my angels, and my guitar singin' baby look how far we've come here
I'm havin' a private party
Learning how to love me
Celebrating the woman I've become, yeah

I tried to call my mother, but
She didn't get where I was going
I called my boyfriend and he said
Call me back a little later baby
I hung up the phone, I felt so alone
Started to feel a little pity
That's when I realized that I
Gotta find the joy inside of me

I'm gonna take off all my clothes
Look at myself in the mirror
We're gonna have a conversation
We're gonna heal the disconnection
I don't remember when it started
But this is where it's gonna end
My body is beautiful and sacred
And I'm gonna celebrate it

All my life (all my life)
I've been looking for (I've been looking for)
Somebody else (else)
To make me whole (ooo)
But I had to learn the hard way (ooo)
True love began with me (ooo)
This is not ego or vanity (ooo)
I'm just celebrating me

Sometimes I'm alone but never lonely
That's what I've come to realize
I've learned to love the quiet moments
The Sunday mornings of life
Where I can reach deep down inside
Or out into the universeI can laugh until I cry
Or I can cry away the hurt
(India Arie - Private Party)

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Another stupid love songs

*Browsing on iTunes*
*Searching “INDO” on playlist*

Track 1: Tompi – Cinta yang kucari
"Meski kusadari cintaku padamu
penuh kesalahan, aku tlah mendua, tlah melupakanmu
abaikan cintamu. Kuyakin kau tau.. akan segalanya"

Kenapa juga selingkuh dijadiin lagu? Bangga?


Track 2: Tompi - Salahkah
"Salahkah bila ku mendua
Salahkah bila rasa ku menghilang
Dan aku tak lagi merasa engkau ada
Dan cintaku seolah jenuh akan hatimu"

Haishh, perselingkuhan yang dibanggakan (the legend continues ya Tomp?)


Track 3: Dygta – Bukan kekasih setia
"Kau yang mencitaiku
Aku tak pantas memilikimu
Aku tlah melakukan kesalahan yang berulang
Sungguh bukan maksudku tuk menghianati cinta ini
Tapi memang ku bukan kekasihmu yang setia…"

Againnnnnn?????? What is wrong with Indonesian songs???????


Track 4: Rosa – Terlalu cinta
"Jangan dekat atau jangan dating kepadaku lagi
Aku semakin tersiksa karna tak memilikimu"

I don’t like mellow song… Titik.


Track 5: Bunga Citra Lestari – Cinta pertama (Sunny)
"Sunny, Sunny…
Apa kabar mu kabar ku baik baik saja"

What a stupid lyrics?!?!?!?! Aku juga baik baik saja lhooooo (gak ada yg nanya oy!!)


Another one, if this one another stupid love songs……

Track 6: Kerispatih – Mengenangmu
"Tak kan pernah habis air mataku
Bila ku ingat tentang dirimu"

WTF???????? Cowok kok cengeng???????

*iTunes closed*

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

How sweet a guy can be

MSN (05/06/07) 2.15 PM

He says:
waktu gw ultah taon lalu
gw kan di indo
n my x juga di indo
yah waktu itu masih sama2 lah
jam 12 malam gw tiba2 dijemput
trus mata gw ditutup pake selendang
n tau2nya dia udah book 1 cafe khusus kita berdua
candle light dinner
trus dia nyanyiin lagu buat gw

MeL says:
Oh my goddddd
how romantic1 cafe khusus lu be2??

He says:

MeL says:

He says:
bener2 1 cafe tuh dibook ama dia
gw sampe kaget, salah tingkah
cafe restaurant gitu sih
gw masih inget bgt waktu itu kuenya gw warna biru haha
di satu cafe penuh lilin n baloon n u know what...
she kissed me when i was blindfolded hahaha

MeL says:
wat would be romantic for me is..
instead di cafe..
gw lebih seneng diajak makan sate abang2..
trus anak2 pengamen yg nyanyiin hepi bday
murah meriah.. tp berkesan

He says:
hahaha yeeeee lu kannn senangnya ama tukan sate...
ntar deh yah taon depan gw bakalan bikinin surprise buat lu kayak gitu k
i will book a flight ticket for you

"How sweeeeeeeeet… How I wished I haven't got a boyfriend..."

Monday, June 04, 2007

More on Bags, this time Tote

(From left to right: Anya Hindmarch Elrod tote - Jimmy Choo Morgan leather tote - Miu Miu Regular leather tote)

Browsing through net-a-porter and suddenly falling in love.
Yes, I fall in love with these big white totes. I always have been a fan of white colour. I basically keen on anything that is white. But just now I just realized that I never have a big white bag! It gets me thinking…Hmm… but with all this big bags, what should I put into them?

What usually inside my bag is as shown on the picture below. Which are, no more or less:

                • Black wallet from Esprit that I used for almost 3 years (yeah believe me!)
                • Vaseline lip balm
                • DKNY sunnies
                • Tissue
                • Blue 4G Ipod Nano
                • Keys
                • Nokia 6288

I always wonder when I saw woman carrying a big handbag (which really “in” lately), what really inside their bag?? It seems to me they could carry clothes for a whole week! Me? The biggest item that could take up space in my bag is probably an umbrella which I rarely use.

Anyway, I’m in love with those white bags! The bigger the better, despite what should I put inside it.

Definitely putting them on my wish list ^_^

Monday, May 28, 2007

Thesis oh thesis

Huh... exammm.... thesissssss....
my bad putting it all to the last minutes...

wish i can just fukitol -_-

SMS ibu

Tiiiittt.. tieeeeet…

SMS ku memanggil.
Dari ibu.
Isinya,"Ica udah tidur? Ntn film pirates of caribbean ya td? Bagus ga?"
Setelah kubaca, kuletakan kembali dimeja.
Aku diamkan dulu karena lagi sibuk mengutak-atik rumus untuk skripsi.

5 menit berlalu

Tiiiittt.. tieeeeet…

Loh kok berbunyi lagi? Ibu sms lagi karena takut sms yang tadi tak sampai?
Dengan malas-malasan ku ambil si telepon yg memanggil.
Dari seorang pria.
Isinya singkat, tidak padat, tidak jelas, "Mel, lagi ngapain?"
Tanpa berpikir panjang aku langsung menekan tombol reply.
Reply, "Lagi ngerjain skripsi nih. Pusing deh gak selesai-selesai. Btw, td aku nonton Pirates of the Caribbean loh. Km dah ntn lom?"


Telepon ku langsung ramai bernyanyi. Balas-membalas SMS dengan si pria. Setelah 3 kali menerima dan mengirim, telepon ku diam.

5 menit.

15 menit.

25 menit.

Itu telepon kenapa gak manggil-manggil lagi?

Akhirnya aku ingat sms dari Ibu belom dibalas
Reply, "Belom, lagi kerjain tugas".


1 menit.

Tiiiittt.. tieeeeet…

Akhirnya dibales juga. Abis ngapain tu anak nunggu setengah jam buat balas sms?? Pikirku.

Ternyata bukan balasan sms yang ku nanti.
Dari Ibu.
Isinya, "Oh, ya udah kamu belajar aja deh. Yang rajin ya".

Oalaahh ternyata Ibu menunggu balasan SMS dari ku. Sedangkan aku melupakan ibu dan malah menunggu balasan dari temanku.
Aku lebih mengutamakan panggilan teman dari pada panggilan ibu. Padahal kalau ada masalah dengan si teman aku pasti langsung lari ke ibu.

Aku langsung merasa bersalah.

Cepat-cepat menekan tombol reply.

Reply, "Mama di rumah? Aku telepon rumah ya…"

Saturday, May 26, 2007

Aku kangen rumah

26 May 07

Uh… aku kangen rumah.

Pasti kebanyakan orang kira bisa sekolah ke luar negeri tuh enak banget. Karena dipikir kehidupan di luar sana pasti lebih baik dari pada di dalam negeri. Semua lebih teratur, lebih menurut aturan, dan ilmu pendidikan dan teknologi pun pasti jauh lebih maju.
Memang benar sih, semuanya lebih teratur daripada di dalam negeri. Sarana transportasi gampang, bersih, dan gak berpolusi. Mau jalan-jalan sampai pulang malem pun gak takut rampok atau diculik. Tapi apakah itu semua cukup?

Ternyata kenyamanan hidup minus orang-orang yang kita sayangi (baca: keluarga) itu tidak cukup. Sejelek-jeleknya Indonesia, tetap saja kampung halaman yang tidak akan bisa diganti. Kadang-kadang (seperti sekarang) aku berpikir, misalnya aku di Jakarta, hari Sabtu jam 9 malam pasti lagi pergi makan ato duduk-duduk dan ngobrol sama mama papa. Besok paginya dibangunin pagi-pagi buat ke gereja, lalu acara keluarga lagi. Gak repot mikirin mau makan apa malem ini, dan berakhir dengan indomie gara-gara gak sempet belanja. Ada yang masakin, ada yang anterin kalau aku butuh bantuan transportasi, dan yang lebih penting, ada tangan yang terbuka lebar dikala aku ingin dipeluk. Aku kangen rumah…

Kemaren ini sempet nonton Serial TV Jomblo di youtube. Ceritanya tentang persahabatan 4 orang lelaki di masa kuliah. Aku sempat berpikir, kalau saja dulu aku kuliah di dalam negeri, pasti aku gak akan merasa seperti ini. Teman-teman pasti selalu ada, mau ke rumah mereka pun gampang. Kalau di luar negeri seperti ini, teman-teman dari 4 tahun yang lalu yang tetap bersamaku hanya 1, yaitu housemate-ku yang 2 bulan lagi bakal lulus dan balik ke Indonesia. Di luar negeri cari teman itu gampang, tapi cari sahabat yang susah. Teman sekaligus sahabat ku sekarang mencar-mencar di penjuru dunia. Ada yang sudah balik ke Indonesia, ada yang di Canada, bahkan yang di Australia pun mencar ke Sydney dan Perth. Kalau saja dari dulu aku kuliah di dalam negeri, pasti teman-teman yang menjadi sahabatku sama-sama di Indonesia sekarang. Aku kangen rumah…

Tentang relationship pun begitu. Teman-temanku yang punya pacar disini mulai bingung karena kita sebentar lagi lulus. Ada yang pacarnya mau tetap tinggal di Ausi, sedangkan dia sendiri mau balik Indo. Ada lagi yang baru saja putus karena si lelaki ambil sekolah bahasa di Cina, sendangkan si perempuan tetap disini. Ada lagi yang sama-sama mudik Indo tetapi mereka berasal dari daerah yg berbeda, satu di Jakarta, satu lagi di Surabaya. *sigh*. Aku pun bingung. Kalau saja kita sama-sama tinggal di Jakarta, pasti gak akan serumit long distance relationship (LDR) yang masa depannya masih belom jelas. Kalau saja aku berada di Jakarta sekarang, mungkin aku lagi jalan-jalan sama pacar, atau diapelin ke rumah. Aku kangen rumah…


Melbourne, 16 May 2007
8.47 am

Geez, I woke up early but have no energy to go to Uni. Today is tutorial (which I hate because the homework sheet is so tough and the tutor is NOT helping at all). So I decided to stayed at home and tell my story about last night.

I dunno where to start, really…

So I have this boyfriend back in Indonesia, so this is what we called long distance relationship (LDR). I feel lately that he don’t care anymore about me. He never calls anymore, he never online to chat with me as he used to do. He still SMS me every day, but the content would be so general that it bore me. And when I reply his text, it would take him an hour before he replied back. Let just say that I am tired waiting for him.

Last night I have two friends (boys, and they don’t know that I have a boyfriend) chatting with me online in MSN. They talk and flirt with me about relationship. OK, they asked me to be they girlfriend =P

Funny it is that they are not the only one. I text my other friend during that same night, we chatted on the phone, and play pranks with each other. This boy (I think) is attracted to me too. He cares, he asked me out, he always chat with me mostly every day.

The question is now… with that 3 boys waiting for my reply, what the hell am I doing with this careless boyfriend of mine? Why don’t I just having relationship with one of those guys? I must tell you that 2 out of 3 are in Melbourne so I won’t need to have LDR, which is sucks by the way. Why why why?????

I guess I’m still expecting something from my boyfriend. But lately, every time he SMS me, all I’m feeling is sadness, because I have to deal or think of him again. In my mind, I am over with him, although he never dies in my heart. Every time I tried to talk with him about this, he always always find a way to change my mind. Always have excuses, and make me think that I am the one who asking too much from him. I don’t know how to break up with him. I’ve tried several times, trust me, but I never succeeded.

Now I really don’t know what to do. Will I be happier without him? God, help me decide. Help me to have the courage to talk with him without him shaking my ground again. Help me to know the differences. Just, help me please…

And if he is not the one, help me to break up with him. Tell me tricks on ‘how to lose a guy immediately’!

Friday, February 23, 2007

All for Love

Love story time…

Story number 1

I have this friend; lets call him “A”. He recently told me that he is in deeply in love with my girl friend “B”. A and B are childhood friends, but then lost contact for years until 2 years ago they accidentally met. A has been in love with her since they were on elementary school. So when they met for the second time, the love blossoms in his heart once again. However, the down side is, B already has a boyfriend. So A ask me to help him get closer to B even though he knows that he will never win her heart. “I will love her in silence,” he once said to me. “As long as she is happy, I would be fine”… Tragic…?

Story number 2

Another friend of mine just got dumped by his boyfriend. This is what he said to her, “Babe, I’m sorry. We had our differences, and I just don’t love you no more”. I know they had differences in cultural and religion matter. Those things are very fundamental aspect in a serious relationship. They have tried to work it out for a year, but I guess it turned out not well for them. They, or should I say HE, has given up on love. And by saying that he doesn’t love her no more is even worsen the situation.

Just a message for you, who’s broken hearted,

Never regret something that once made you smile

I know it’s easier to say than done, but I’ve been holding to those quote this last couple of years, and it works for me.

One more quote I want to share with you,

No man/woman is worth your tears and the only one who is, will never makes you cry

So people *(khususnya buat kamu yang mau gantung diri di pohon toge), Cheer up my friend! Love will find you without you even realize it.

And for those who is in love, just remember this:
In life there are very rare chances that you’ll meet the person you love and loves you in return. So once you have it don’t ever let it go, the chance might never come your way again.

*Translated as: Especially for you who want to hang yourself on a beansprout branch

Monday, January 29, 2007

Alone at night

Jakarta, 28th January 2007

I’m sitting here, all alone in my little corner
Waiting for the sun to shine and the night to be over
Thinking about how great today went
And how boring the next 5 days going to be
I waited for someone to call
While wondering who miss-called me 3 times this afternoon
(It was a guy, but I don’t know him. Could it be my secret admirer? =P)
But nobody called
The clock keeps ticking...
It’s dawn
I feel so alone
Suddenly a lizard crossed by and surprised me
Guess I surprised it too
It ran away and left me still in shocked
Suddenly I laughed
Laughed so hard to my silly thought
Guess what?! I guess I can never be alone in this world
There was the lizard saying “hello” to me during my lonely night
There was an old lady gave me a lift home when I waited 1 hour for a bus
Even, There was my mother smiled at me the second I was born

So tonight, for all the small things and the biggest things He has done for me
I’ll say a little prayer

Dear God,
Thanks for making the world so crowded
So I will never be alone
Thanks for the archangel who always protects me
I know I cannot see it, but I can very much feel it protecting me
And I realized that You will never leave me alone in this world
Thanks for being with me in every steps of my life.

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